I want to be happier than I ever thought possible. I want to be that so amazingly high on life that no one can take me down. I want that kind of love that when I even think about them, my heart literally melts into my toes and I can't think straight. I want to be so fucking excited about life that when I wake up in the morning I jump up and start the day without the thought of sleeping another minute. I want to be the girl that can handle anything and be the rock for everyone but especially herself. I don't want to rely on anyone but myself to not only be happy but be stable. I want to be in love with someone because of their company not because I need them to keep me happy. I want to just stay positive and never have a single negative thought again. I want to enjoy my college years and suck it up if things aren't going my way. I want to live in an apartment and have a cute roommate that becomes my best friend and I want my kitty be there everyday to greet me the moment I wake up and the moment I walk through the door of hard and exciting work. I want to have the happy family when I grow up. I want the happy little kids that always listen and don't have the problems I did. I want to grow old and sit on my huge porch with my cute old husband and adorable family dog watching my beautiful grand children be monsters in the yard. I want to die the happiest woman in the world and it may not happen until I'm 80 but the day I don't have a care in the world except what makes me happy is the day I will completely and utterly be at peace. That's the day I can honestly pass in peace.